UST VS ATENEO

This is my perspective. In any way, I do not to impose negative things to the universities involved.

Ateneo, is my sought after university ever since I graduate my bachelor’s degree in their neighbor College, Miriam College. For the four years I studied in my college, I  dreamed of pursuing  higher studies in Ateneo. As Ateneo offers one of the best curriculum and most prestigious program in Psychology, I knew that I will be an Ateneo student.

Summer of 2016, I applied for Masters in Ateneo. The entrance examination was fatal and brutal. Thank God, I passed that one. Two weeks after I got an email indicating that I was scheduled for an interview. My poor little heart jumped for joy. On the day of the interview, I was asked to reconsider for Industrial Psychology as I initially applied for Counseling Psychology. It went downhill from there. I have no time reckon my thoughts between choosing between the two branches of Psychology, and I was denied to enter Ateneo. IMAGINE MY MISERY.

The following semester, I tried UST. Lo-and-behold, I got accepted. I’m in my first term now. Do not get me wrong, UST is excellent but it is not Ateneo. The crowd are different. The way people interact is not the Atenean way. The environment is far from each other, let alone the trees in Katipunan, now I walk in the pollution of España. The thoughts and ideologist of both schools are aligned but parallel in execution. Even the religious orders are different, from Jesuit to Dominicans.

As much I wanted to be a part of the Ateneo community, I am now part of the Thomasian way. Needless to say, UST is one of the best, I need to work hard to succeed with my endeavors. I need to in vibe in me the Thomasian Spirit.

GO USTE!

 

11.27.2015

When I was in California, I stayed in my Uncle’s place in San Francisco and I needed to move to my auntie’s place in Los Angeles. My uncle decided that I had limited time for vacation in the state that he shouldered the expenses in plane fare towards LA. I would be too costly, time speaking, for me to drive all the way to LA. It will be my first time to ride a plane alone. Do you that feeling of your first ride? The feeling that you might board the wrong flight, that all your luggage may loaded in a different plane or the worst I thought of was, what if this plane crashed and I had nobody with me. Continue reading “11.27.2015”

Floating

Hi there, it has been awhile since I last post here.

I got a lot of things of my mind. I’ll give you an update of how things are in my life (I’d probably post some of these in breath-taking.) About a year ago, everything was a bliss. I can say that it was one of those glorious days. in May of 2014, I was a presenter in Stanford. Together with Tin, Ange and other representatives of Miriam College, we presented our respective thesis to those foreigners who believed that what we fabricated was worthy of their time. And, of course, when the conference was over, we leisured ourselves in being a Tourist in a foreign country. I had the time of my life. 

Six months after, came the Psychometrician boards licensure examination. In November of 2014, officially awarded by the PRC, I am now a Licensed Psychometrician. Everyone was so proud of me, and I felt loved an acknowledge.

To be honest, everything in 2014 was pure happiness. I was loved and appreciated by the Angelicus family; To besh and to my other friends, I was important; To my career, I was promising, To Love, I was someone; To my family, I was relevant and achieving.

2015 came in, what happened? Did life happened? I am in a state where I want more. I am in a job that is dragging and feels like a call center. I want an HR job or to pursue medicine. I hope to change career as soon as possible.It literally feels like, I wake up just to survive the day. It’s quite pathetic.

Angelicus choir used to be my breath of fresh air. I always looked forward to weekends because of them. They recharge my dying spirit and fills me with love, happiness and dreams. Nowadays, it seems that if I vanished from their presence, I wouldn’t be miss. I feel like a disappointment to them.

My friends, Besh and 4, became distant. I do understand that we are not supposed to talk 24/7. I know that physical distant is not the measurement of friendship. It was the problem of mine, in my perception, I was emotionally detaching myself to them. I felt that there was a wall that has been pilling up and I was reinforcing it. Instead of acting otherwise, I am feeding the wolf that navigates me toward the dead end of highway positive.

My family and relatives were also an issue this year. My self-proclaimed righteous cousin is creating a feud between us. Sometime, February (if my memory was correct) was her idiotic phase. She engaged herself on war between us. I, honestly, did not give a care on what happened on that part. What I resent is that my amazing father chose to believed her than his own offspring. I invested much emotion on a wrong move for my father.

In addition to that, I genuinely believe, that I am not enough for my family. It is just that what can they be proud of me. I was mediocre with this kind of job. I feel that I can never be enough and I am not doing anything about it.

It feels like I am in a depressing state. I want to focus on what I have, and what I can gain. It just that this emotions take the better of me.I want my life back in 2014. I believe that was the problem, I am so consumed how perfect 2014 was, and I just want to reenact it this year. However, everything changed. It can never be the same. I am moving forward but slowly. I hope that with God’s help, I will be on the right track again and happy.

So help me, God.